LPfiction

Category Linkin Park

Hello by hattu

Hello!


Welcome to this short little standalone. Hope you like and enjoy it!


Thanks to all the nice people who took the time to review my last story!

Your words surely kept me motivted and made me smile from ear to ear!


Like always: I don´t own anything! Complete fiction, never happend! Lyrics belong to Braz aka Ron Cazzato from 4Lyn.


Have fun!


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Hello


Slowly daylight creeps through the blinds, just like yesterday and the day before. It will change nothing; everything remains grey, all the sunny brightness gone. Staying where I am, watching the room change from the black of night to the grey of day.


The Sun won’t come out today

And it’s meaningless to say

That I saw this coming everyday

Love starts with a smile

And grows with a kiss


It’s been a week now. I progressed from my bedroom to the living room couch. I thought the TV would help to block out the emptiness, block out the loneliness. TV didn’t help, but beer did. I’m alone. Utterly alone since that night. European tour was finished. We had our last night there, next morning the flights would bring us home. I was so excited, so excited. We would be able to share a few weeks together. We finally could have shared everything without looking out for our bandmates, without tiny bunks and a cramped bus. Why was I so blind? Why was I so deaf to our friends’ warnings?


It always ends up in tears

And someone to miss

I’ve been there before

I’ve been there before


As I stepped into our hotel room that night, I was so blown away. You half naked in a sea of candles and roses. I have to give you the credit, it was the most romantic thing ever done for me and surely one memorable night. All destroyed with your words right before we stepped on the plane next morning. You said you were sorry, but you just couldn’t leave Talinda. You thought you could, but you were wrong, you loved her too much. With that you switched seats with Brad and left me alone, desperately trying to hide my tears from Brad.


And even if you say it’s better this way

Maybe it’s better for you but what about me?


Can you imagine how much it hurt to see you falling into Talinda’s arms? How you kissed her like no tomorrow? How the others threw their “told you so” looks at me? Do you know how much it hurt? Do you?


Hello! For you I’m dying.

Cuz´ I’m so tired of fighting.

And maybe you say it’s better this way

But I don’t believe you!

Hello, for you I’m dying!


I turned around and walked away. Took a taxi home by myself, drove home and went straight to my bed. Let the tears fall. You never bothered to call. The others never bothered to call even.


Don’t think that I’m heartless now

I already know the “why“ and “how“

It came that far because we are what we are


Here I am, all alone. The alcohol gone, the hurt returns. How could I fool myself so much and believe you loved me. How could I not see that I was just your toy? Why do I always fall in love with the wrong person? Why can nobody love me? I’m pathetic, ugly, stupid, just plain repulsive. Why would anybody love me? I really should open my eyes!


Joy starts with love and grows with patience

It ends up in greed and isolation

I’ve been there before

I said I’ve been there before

And even if I hate myself from this day

It’s maybe easy for you but what about me?


I stumble towards the bathroom. I know I promised Brad never ever return to that, but right now I just can’t help it. He also promised to be there for me no matter what. Well, where is he? Nobody is here, nobody cares. Why should they? I’m alone as always.


Hello! For you I’m dying.

Cuz´ I’m so tired of fighting.

And maybe you say it’s better this way

But I don’t believe you!

Hello, for you I’m dying!


As I see myself in the mirror I know why nobody likes me. Who would like, let alone love, somebody like me? I search in the drawers for this long lost friend of mine. Finding it in the last corner; my small wooden treasure. I sit down on the floor with my back against the bath tube, running my fingers over the smooth surface.


I throw away something I love

And force myself to quit, because

I want to let you know

Hello!


It’s always been like this, always. I see someone, I fall for them and then get dumped. I’m always left alone with the shards of my heart, nobody there to help me to pick them up. I open the wooden box and pick up the shiny blade. It was a long time ago since I last had this in my hand. A long time ago I allowed myself to fall in love. A long time ago as Brad found me crying and bloody in a hotel bathroom. One scar for everybody who left me, everyone gets his own neat line on my left leg. Brad said I should stop. Brad said to come to him. Brads not here. Brad knows what’s going on. Like everybody else. But why care for the stupid drummer?


Hello! For you I’m dying.

Cuz´ I’m so tired of fighting.

And maybe you say it’s better this way

But I don’t believe you!

Hello, for you I’m dying!


They all told me it would end up like this. They all said I should stay away from Chester. Foolish for me to believe in Chester’s love. Stupid. I draw the line on my leg. I replace the pain of my broken heart, with the hurt of a razorblade on skin. My vision of my blood running down my legs gets blurry as tears cloud my eyes. I curl myself up crying on the bathroom floor, as a hear someone knocking on my front door. Too late my friend, the damage is done.


Hello!


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Thanks for reading! Hope you like it!


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Greetz hattu

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