Category Linkin Park
A year and A day(you always leave)
Chester's POV
A year and a day.
The time you stayed by my side, the time that passed since the last time you left.
“I need to find myself”
you say… the sole reason, an alibi that’s getting rusty.
A year and a day ago, I remember you standing out my door at 3 am on a rainy twilight with your bags and all.
“I love you Chester.”
You say.
“I love you too, so much…”
I answer the only reason I allow you back each and every time you leave. It’s the same old cycle; you leave, I wait, you come back, I welcome you.
A year and a day, we’ve been staying together. Every waking moment is bliss. It’s always that way. Everything is fine; everything is perfect, until tonight.
“I’m leaving you…”
you said over dinner.Your voice, cold and expressionless.
“Not anymore…”
I spat back almost uninterested.
“I need to find myself.”
Rust! The line is full of rust!
“You have yourself…with me…”
I stared him down.
“You don’t understand!”
you stood up and went to the bedroom, our bedroom. Normally I would get up and follow you. This time I just sat there.
“I’m tired…”
a cracking voice said, I realized that the voice belongs to me as a tear rolled down my cheek.
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Minutes later, you came down, fully packed with your suitcase and travel bag in hand. I stared at you, you stared back. Your eyes, those dark orbs used to be filler with sparkle, are red, I bet mine were too.
You nodded in my direction, the way you said goodbye to our friends during band practices, and approached the door.
You reached for the handle but just stood there. Not really retreating nor proceeding.
“I know this is getting old; I want to be perfect for the person I love. I want to be the best for you, I don’t want to lose you Chester…”
you were sobbing, but you started to twist the knob.
I stood up, approached you and hugged you from behind. I hear you take a sharp intake of breath.
“You will lose me if you leave…”
I say
“you don’t have to be perfect…”
I kissed your shoulder.
“I’m sorry…”
now you are freely crying. Both bags fell to the floor with a thud. You turned to face me. We stood in front of the door for quite a while just enjoying the feel of each other.
“I really do love you Chester… I hope you know that…”
You gave me a sweet peck on the lips.
“I do know that, I just don’t feel it sometimes…”
I rested my head on your shoulder.
“I’m s-sorry...”
you kissed the top of my head
“I promise I won’t leave anymore.”
“I hope so…”
The millionth promise of the same essence.
“I love you so much Chester…”
“I love you too Mike…”
The only reason I allow you back…
And the cycle starts again. You leave, I wait, you come back, and I welcome you.
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I just came back from a massive writers block! haha! comments are really appreciated and loved...*hug*^^