Author: hybridgurl

Rating: PG-13

Category: Angst

Summary: Sometimes all you need is to melt the ice…

Disclaimer: If I really did own LP I would be doing something way more productive that would involve Mike Shinoda, my bedroom, some whipped cream, handcuffs and a video camera ;)

A/N: Another standalone from me! I know I’ve been doing nothing but standalones lately, but I’m working on my next chaptered fic and it’ll be up soon. In the meantime here’s some angst to keep you going. Again no names are given so it can be any two band members you want. I always think it’s interesting to see who you guys pair with who lol. This story is dedicated to hmaddox1 who gave me my wonderful muse – thank you!

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Forever Winter

The days are cold, the nights are even colder, but I remember a time when that wasn’t the way things were supposed to be.

I remember the warmth.

I remember the sunlight.

I remember what it felt like to see you smile.

I remember what it was like before your heart was frozen, before you eyes became cold.

Part of me has the nerve to think that it’s not my fault. Part of me believes you caused your own destruction.

The others tell me I’m delusional – my therapist says I’m better off without you, but I can’t leave.

I crave your icy touch as much as I crave our hostile conversations.

I stay because without you I’m weak, without your presence my tears make fresh scars, without you my emotions drown me and I torture myself over the mistakes I made to make you the way you are; cold, frozen, glittering with an icy hatred at a world who refused to acknowledge our love existed.

I stay because I’m clinging to the fact that maybe one day your heart will break free from it’s winter prison.

I stay because a part of me believes someday you’ll let the warmth triumph and melt away the residue of the sacrifices you made for our forbidden love.

You sacrificed everything for me, as I did for you.

The music, the band, the fans, the admiration, everything.

The others, although they hardly speak to us, believe it was the media that made you the way you are.

The questions of how your past affected the future brought up memories of pain and betrayal you fought so hard to forget all those years ago like I knew they would.

You persevered to set the record straight – they we were “real” and not just the effect of a confused and miserable childhood, but eventually the lack of belief and constant condemnation took its toll on you, forced you into your hollow reverie where no one could reach you.

You remain the same after all these months.

I’m sorry I made you give it all up for me – but it hurts that you don’t realise I did the same for you.

Your soft voice rouses me from my melancholic thoughts of us and my eyes find your frame silhouetted against the window.

It’s the first time you’ve spoken to me in three weeks and I can’t conceal my surprise.

“Come, look”

Your voice is sombre and you speak with your back to me.

Cold as ice, my forever winter.

I rise from my seat and slowly come to stand beside you.

Outside the world is lost to a blanket of untouched snow.

“Look”

You raise your hand and point to an icicle on the branch of a nearby tree.

A single tear of water drips off the end like a solitary rain shower.

The next thing you do astonishes me and leaves me speechless.

You lean across and place a delicate kiss on my cheek – the first sign of affection you have ever shown me since the days that were warm.

Your voice is quiet but still it carries;

“The winter is starting to melt…”

Your smile carries a depth to it and I realise your words are a metaphor for so much more.

For the first time in forever the sun begins to shine and I know everything will be okay…

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A/N: Read, review and tell me who you thought it was :) For me it was Mike remembering and Chester was the “forever winter” *showers readers with fairy dust* Review!