Don't know anyone, don't own anyone, all fiction.

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So this is pretty short and to be honest, not that great in my opinion. My apologies, I just wanted to get it out and figured once it was typed out I may as well post it up here and see what you guys think of it.

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I still can't believe it.

You hid your skeletons when I had shown you mine

You woke the devil that I thought you'd left behind

I saw the evidence, the crimson soaking through

Ten thousand promises; ten thousand ways to lose

Even as I stand here, staring at your coffin, I don't believe it. Mike's on one side of me, Dave's on the other. Chester's throwing his shovel full of dirt on top of you. I can hear Joe crying quietly behind me. It's a strange thing; hearing Joe cry. It strange to see Chester looking so dull. It's strange to see Dave's face absent of his cheeky smile that gives away that he's almost always up to no good. Mike. Mike is a mess. The Glue has lost his stick. That Shinoda smile that makes the girls swoon, that total self confidence and the way he could always comfort any one of us with a simple pat on the shoulder. That's all gone.

And it's my fault.

I should've seen, Brad. I should've seen how much you were struggling so much earlier. I should've noticed months ago that your smile wasn't quite reaching your eyes like it used to. Come to think of it, I think I did. I guess I just thought that you were stronger than this nowadays and that you'd pull yourself out of it.

What are the guys supposed to do now? What are Elisa and Jonah supposed to do? What am I supposed to do?

And you held it all

But you were careless to let it fall

You held it all

And I was by your side

Powerless

I always knew that you had troubles when you were a kid. Troubles much like mine. I thought you were over it now though. You had your beautiful wife and son, and I just thought life was great for you. Otherwise I would never have dragged you into my bullshit. If I'd known how much you were hurting... God, Brad. I wish I could trade places with you.

I knew that you were starting to crumble. Only a few weeks ago, do you believe that? It took me all that time. I tried, you have to believe me. I tried to be there for you like you had been there for me, but it just wasn't enough. I wasn't enough. I watched you sink lower and lower, wishing like all Hell that there was something I could do. That I would have a sudden brain wave and instantly know how to fix it and make everything better again.

I watched you fall apart and chased you to the end

I'm left with emptiness that words cannot defend

You'll never know what I became because of you

Ten thousand promises; ten thousand ways to lose

Now you're gone and what am I supposed to do? How do I tell the other guys that I could see you slipping and did nothing about it? How do I tell Mike that I let his best friend take his own life? How do I tell Elisa that it's my fault she's a widow; tell Jonah it's my fault his Dad is gone and never coming back?

And here I am being selfish again. Oh, poor Rob can't hold down a relationship. Poor Rob can't get over his self esteem and anxiety issues. Poor Rob, poor Rob, poor Rob. Maybe if stupid Rob had paid more attention to Brad, none of us would be here.

You have to believe me when I say that you really did change my life. You really did help me and you really did get me on my way to being a better person. It just cuts me that you will never know what you've done for me. You'll never know how much I appreciate you, and always will.

And you held it all

But you were careless to let it fall

You held it all

And I was by your side

Powerless

And you held it all

But you were careless to let it fall

You held it all

And I was by your side

Powerless

I am so fucking pissed off with myself; just so mad that I couldn't do more for you. But do you know what else?

I'm disappointed in you.

It seems wrong to think that way now that you're gone, but I really am. Everything you said to me just made so much sense, and I just don't see why you couldn't practice what you preached. We were supposed to be in it together. You were supposed to tell me everything like I told you everything.

As mad as I am with myself, I'm mad at you for lying. For being so stupid and letting things get this far without speaking up. If you didn't want to talk to me, why not Mike? Why not Elisa? You should've said something, Brad. You really really should've said something. And I think that's what's getting to me the most. This could've been prevented, if only you'd stopped pretending to be everyone else's hero and let someone help you for a change.

Powerless

Powerless

You really should've said something, because now we're all lost without you.

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As always, let me know. Whether you thought it was good or bad, I want to hear both sides. Thanks for reading.

Lyrics are Powerless by Linkin Park. Duh, right?